Confessions of a Teenage?! Drama Queen

Linguistics

2006-05-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

I studied in grade school and high school in SSC. I'm not bragging but it is one of the best exclusive schools in Manila. In Filipino class we were taught to refer to things as "ito" and people as "siya". I find it VERY VERY rude when people refer to other people as "ito". For example, Meron itong ballpen or Ito isasama ko or Ito, pupunta doon. I really find it rude because in these cases you are referring to a person. A person is a living being. They are respected. And as a way of respecting them, you do not refer to them as things by using "ito". The proper way of saying these are Meron SIYANG ballpen or Isasama ko SIYA or Pupunta siya doon. I don't think SSC taught me something wrong, especially something as basic as that.

2006-03-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

Being a Communication Arts graduate, I'm supposed to be into indie movies. But to tell you the truth, I enjoy "teeny bopper" movies. I grew up on Clueless the mother and pioneer of all teeny bopper movies. I used to spend almost one entire summer watching that movie over and over and over. I liked Jawbreaker. Makes me suddenly think about my age. I'm getting old, those movies are already as considered modern classics but I was in high school when those were first shown. Now, Alicia Silverstone and Rose McGowan are adults and have adult movies. A new generation is already taking over the silverscreen.

I recently watched She's the man I was quite pleasantly surprised that the movie was OK. Its not the best, but it was OK. It wasn't a waste of money like other movies that don't have stories. At least this one had one. It was just the usual girl-with-boyfriend-does-something-and-falls-in-love-with-the-new-guy type of movie. But the movie was cute. This is the story. Viola loves soccer but her school's girls team was turned down/closed (I forgot the term they used). And her boyfriend suddenly turns against her and doesn't support her fight to re-open her team. So she decides to take action. She goes to her twin brother's new school and pretends to be him as he goes off to another country to play with his band. She eventually plays for the school's soccer team as her brother and falls in love with her brother's roommate/teammate. Finally at the day of the game against her school she explains to her new love interest that she's not a guy and has fallen for him. As usual the guy is hurt and is mad at her but eventually they get together and become teammates in the school's soccer team. Its the usual teeny bopper story.

Why did I enjoy it eventhough it's the usual story. First, it had funny scenes. And I mean funny. I'm the hard to make me laugh person, I acutally laughed out loud while watching the movie. Two, Duke (Amanda Bynes' love interest, Channing Tatum in real life) is hot. And I mean HOT. He's cute and has a great body. He had scenes where he had to be shirtless. Girls, I recommend you watch the movie just to see him. Well I guess thats it. Its not the best movie, but you'll enjoy it. One thing I didn't like though. I didn't like Amanda Bynes' comedic antics and looks because it obviously looked like she was acting. I enjoy movies that seem like you're watching the real thing, not seeing actors and actress act. Also, I like Hillary Duff and Lindsay Lohan more than Amanda Bynes.

Anyway, I guess whatever age I am I'll still enjoy teeny bopper movies because its the type of movie that doesn't require you to think. Sometimes after a hard day's work and after your stressful life you want an opportunity to enjoy without exerting too much effort. I like doing this sometimes. Watching a movie that makes you laugh and enjoy the moment to make you forget about everything. Its my escape. And for that 1 and 1/2 hours of watching She's the man. I forgot my worries.

Lost

2006-03-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

A plane mysteriously crashes into a deserted island. 44 people survive. A French Woman. A newborn baby. A boy. A hatch. These all form one story, the story of "Lost", airing 10:00 PM, Mondays on AXN.

I enjoy watching Lost. Why do I love it? Well, its a combination of all the stories that we love. Its a love story. A story about family. A story about friendship. A ghost story. Its an adventure. Plus! hot actors and actresses. All these rolled into one. Also, Lost writers make great clinchers that makes its viewers, like me, want to watch the next episodes. For those who haven't seen it, I really really really recommend that you watch it.

A few comments on the first two episodes of season two that aired a few minutes ago on AXN. I liked episode one better than the second. More things happend on episode one. They went into the hatch. Jack saw a guy he met in the past. Mike and Sawyer floated around arguing. While nothing really happend in episode two. It didn't even show what happened next when Jack realized he knew the hostage taker. In other words, the story didn't develop in episode two. Despite this, I can't wait for episode three.

Sometimes its frustrating that Filipinos can't come up with TV Shows like Lost. Actually, as much as I want to change Filipino television, I can't. There's only one answer to the question why we can't make good TV prograns. It still boils down to one thing. Profit. Filipinos can't create stories like Lost because its too intellectual for the masses. The masses won't tolerate those kind of shows. It requires thinking by relating one scene from the next. Masses want everything to be spoonfed to them. They won't watch it. It won't rate. It won't sell. We create TV programs that entertain and MAKE MONEY. Sometimes I wish there were another reason that we don't have good programs, but we all know that its a fact. We create programs that make money. I'm talking about entertainment programs OK. So those who want to rebut saying that there are news programs that educate, etc. I'm not talking about those programs. I'm talking about the purely entertainment programs.

I'm not being biased but appreciate GMA for making new types of shows like Encantadia, Etheria, Mulawin, Darna, etc. It veers away from the usual heavy drama programs that air on primetime. However, I make a warning, telefantasyas are becoming "common". First there was Mulawin, then Encantadia, then Etheria, then Encantadia something, now teasers on another "new" telefantasya, Majika is now airing. After around 5 telefantasyas, another telefantasya is airing. There's nothing new about this anymore. Telefantasyas are becoming the old heavy drama soap operas that used to rate. I propose a new challenge for Filipino writers. Come up with a new genre. Gone are the soap opera days, soon people will get sick of telefantasyas. Why not come up with another komedyserye-something like Marinara? Marinara wasn't a good idea though because it was a spoof from ABS-CBN and I think that it didn't make a good impression. Or come up with a futuraserye or something. Come up with something new!

2006-02-02T23:42:00.001+08:00

Not little Booey's best picture, but she's really soooo cute (and a spoiled little brat)

We have a new puppy. A little Shih Tzu girl named Booey. A new addition to our family. She's actually my sister's dog. We have Toby (the rebel dog), Mandy my little?!(she's a lab and is already full grown) and now little Booey.

Why do I love dogs? Because they love you whatever and whoever you are. They love you unconditionally whether you're rich or poor, you smell or you just woke up. They trully love you. I see it in Mandy or Booey's eyes whenever I come home or when they see me in the morning. They're so happy and excited that I'm home, especially Mandy, she's my baby. She gets real excited and can't wait till you touch her. She wants you to always be happy. Sometimes, well most of the time, she's very very very makulit. Labs are naturally like that especially puppies. But I still love her My dogs are like my practice babies. I have to earn money to feed them (Mandy is my main responsibility because she's mine and she eats a lot!) and bring them to the vet. I have to make sure that they're healthy, fed and bathed. When I get home I make sure that I spend at least a couple of minutes with them. Also, I have to discipline them. Mandy only listens to me. She knows I'm the boss. Booey's a brat because my sister spoils her. I make sure Mandy has toys to play with. It's like having a real kid. I recommend for parents to get their kids a pet. It really does teach them discipline. You know how I got Mandy? My dog Rizzy died and I was telling my mom that when I get a next dog, I want a lab. A few days later we saw Mandy and my mom bought her for me as a birthday gift. Now I have a dog to care for and who loves me very very very much.

New Post! Finally!!!!

2006-02-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

Why does it take me a million years before I post an entry? 1. I can't access it at the office; 2. My sister uses the computer all night for her homework; and 3. My mom keeps playing solitaire, majong etc. hindi ako makasingit!

Anyway, here's a new post:

One of my officemates wanted to go abroad to work. His reason: so that he could save for his daughter's future. He wanted his daughter to study in an exclusive school and to have all the comfort she needed. It reminded me of my dad all over again.

My dad worked abroad for 14 years before he finally came home, stayed here for around 2 years and finally went ahead of us to "the other side". My dad was an OFW. People say that we should be proud of them because they are heroes, etc. etc. etc. I wasn't proud of his job especially way back in high school where all the other kids had their dad with them 24/7. And I always had to explain that my dad wasn't here, he'll be back on Christmas, etc. etc. etc. I should have been more proud of it (being an OFW). It was such a noble thing to do. Because of enduring being abroad alone without your family all these years he was able to spoil me to death. He was able to make me study at St. Scho and DLSU and he was so proud when I graduated. I regretted it when he bought me a big bunch of flowers during graduation and I mad a big fuss about it. Its those things that make me want to go back into time and tell him a simple "Thank you", he would have loved that. I became a girl scout in grade school. I remember my dad telling me that when he was a kid he wanted to become a boy scout but they didn't have money for it. Too bad he wasn't able to attend any of my girl scout activities. My dad isn't part of a rich chinese clan who are in the constant threat of being kidnapped. He belonged to a regular family.

I told my officemate that if he left, he'd miss a lot as his kid would grow up. He'd miss her first steps, her first words etc. I remember that my sister was alread more than a year old when she first saw my dad. And she was so scared of him on their first meeting. She also called all the guys she saw Papa.

All those thoughts, and a lot more were in my head as I drove home. You could imagine what I looked like in the car. I was crying my heart out as usual. The tears didn't stop until I reached our gate. Now I understand what people who lose their loved ones feel. Honestly, you can't tell a person that you know how he or she feels when they lose someone they love. You don't know how it feels until you experience it.

I tell all you guys out there, love your parents. If you had a fight just say sorry. Don't let it pass until one day you realize that they're gone and you can't talk to them anymore. You'll only trully understand what I feel when you experience it. I'm telling those out there who pity me or are sorry about it and "know" what I feel. I'm telling you right now, stop being a hypocrite. You don't know. You don't know.

Wire Hanger

2006-01-03T00:50:00.000+08:00

I sort of had an "adventure" tonight. My tita accidentally locked the car with the car keys, spare car keys and my niece inside! Good thing my niece was in a good mood & sang nursery rhyms through the entire ordeal. We spent more than an hour trying to find ways to open the car. We tried to teach her to open the windows or undo her car seat but she couldn't because it was to hard/tight for her tiny hands to push or open it. By the way, when I have my own kid I won't but a carseat thats difficult to unlock. Some emergency might happen and my kid won't be able to free him/herself from it. I'll also teach him/her to open the window in case something like that might happen. We called maintenance, the guards and I even asked passerbys if they knew how to unlock a car door from the outside. No one knew how. They tried prying the door open, but it won't budge. They tried breaking the lock of the window, but they can't do it either. How did we get her out? With the use of a simple wire hanger and a technique that my sis's bf taught her over the phone.

That makes you think of how we complicate things. We get panicked and stressed out by the situation that we fail to see the simple solutions. I think sometimes instead of worrying too much or trying to do things immediately we should think about the problem first and think of possible solutions. Also, ask for help when we need it! Can you imagine that a wire hanger opened the van? I wish I had a wire hanger to help me.

SM vs. Robinsons

2005-12-27T11:23:00.000+08:00

Here are some reasons (for me) why SM is better than Robinsons:

1. SM is re-inventing itself. It's updating its look. It doesn't have the old tiles, old air conditioning system, etc. SM is opting for a cleaner, more sophisticated look. Plus its more spacious.

2. As its jingle goes "We've got it all for you". It does. It has almost everything for you. Clothes, home furnishings, shoes, bags, kids stuff, etc. It has sophisticated items at a cheaper price. Also, you don't see their items in tiangges (well, I don't).

3. You find an SM mall everywhere. I mean everywhere! I read an article once that SM has three branches in Cavite alone.

4. SM has the Advantage card that encourages its customers to use it. Robinsons doesn't have any.

6. SM is out there. It has events, artistas going there for mini-concerts etc. Robinsons rarely has some.

not in the mood.....

2005-11-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

One month went by and I wasn't able to post anything. I was too tired or stressed to post my usual rantings. Or tinatamad lang ako mag post. I can't think of anything to write. Many things happened but I'm not in the mood to write right now.

Wala Lang

2005-10-11T01:52:00.000+08:00

wala lang.....

A Little Bit of Paradise (for me)

2005-09-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

At last! I was able to leave Manila for the weekend. I was so tired of the city and wanted a "vacation" to relax.

Well, it was hardly a time for relaxing but a time to simply enjoy ourselves. Like usual parties, it was a time for booze, videoke, dancing and swimming (the next morning).

The best part of it was that you were away from Manila. You were away from your work, the stress. For that little bitty amount of time, people can't bother you. You were just there to enjoy.
I needed that time. An overnight trip wasn't enough. I still need more time for a vacation.

Boys will be boys

2005-08-30T19:45:00.000+08:00

One of the things I hate the most is when guys go "Miss! Miss!" and whistle at you. That is ssooooo rude! Guys out there, if you consider yourself decent & educated enough. Never do that! Parang hindi naturuan ng parents nila ng manners!

What happened? I was walking my dog around the village when a group of teenage boys did that. Ok, hindi ko na dapat pinatulan, kids kasi eh. But for me hindi! They should be taught a lesson! Nagsumbong ako sa guard! What got to me is that "decent" people live in our village. We don't have "basagulero's" in every "kanto". (Mwahahaha! so Coniotic!). And I consider the residents OK. But there's that certain group. That's what got to me. I'm not sure if they are really residents or if they live outside the village. The resident's are supposed to be educated. We have guards roaming around yet some of the "outsiders" still sneak in. Its supposed to be a safe place to be in, but its not.

Ok, I sound discriminating but I can't help feeling that way. Majority of the "uneducated" (I'm trying to be as good as I can) are not civilized. Yes educated people can be rude and "uneducated". That incident just got to me!

2005-08-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

Too safe?

2005-08-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

Is there anything as being too safe? Yes, I'm that person. Im a too safe person. I take extra careful steps when I'm doing something. I want something to be planned before I go on with it. I have apprehension when something suddenly comes up and I have to decide whether to go with it or not.

Want an example? I have one. I get so frustrated when I remember it. I had a big account. As in a big, international one. I held back. I wanted to research on it first before I called them. Eventually, I wasn't able to do that as fast as I can that someone else called that account before I did. Thus, I lost it. I lost a potential big account! Grrr!

You know why I'm frustrated? I'm not a sales person, yet I have a sales job. Since high school or college, I never really enjoyed selling. Imagine what I feel right now. Once again, stuck in something where I'm not happy.

I envy people who already found their happiness. I envy the people who love and enjoy their jobs. How I wish I was one of them. I was wondering, how long did it take them before they found that something they loved? So how long will I search for it? How many wrong jobs will it take me before I find what I want?

Chinese?

2005-08-18T02:05:00.000+08:00

When I was a kid, I hated my family name. The girls in my school were cruel that they usually made fun of my family name because I was probably one out of the five students in the whole batch with a Chinese Family Name. Students in all girls schools can be pretty mean sometimes. Eventually when High School came the name taunting stopped. Probably because we became more mature?

Today, everytime I tell people my last name, their next statement usually goes, "Chinese Ka?". Then I go on with my usual explanation that "No, I'm not. Fake ako. Malabnaw na dugo ko. I don't know how to speak Chinese."

You know what, sometimes I wish that I was Chinese. So that I'd be able to give a Yes-I'm-Chinese-Strict-ang-parents-ko-Bawal-ako-magpakasal- sa-Filipino type of answer. I want to experience having a shop in Ongpin. And being "on the lookout" everytime fearing that you might be kidnapped. Talking (in Mandarin or Fookien) to Chinese clients about our chinese lineage and eventually closing a deal because of that. Talking in another language at home. Thats one of my frustrations. I wish I knew how to speak or understand the language. So that I won't bother to read the English subtitles whenever I watch Meteor Garden DVDs and the like. Sometimes, I still experience these (not the fear of being kidnapped because I look like a normal "Indio"). I still have chinese looking relatives though.

Well, come to think of it. I'm happy with being a fake-Chinese. I'm not constrained in doing the traditional. I have freedom to choose what I want to do. I feel "safer" knowing that I won't be kidnapped. My last name might be Chinese, but I'm still a Filipino.

One thing I love about being "Chinese" is the food! And not just any chinese food, chinese food like that in Gloria Maris-Greenhills or Annapolis Seafood Palace type of food. Yum!

Filipino?

2005-08-04T18:20:00.000+08:00

i just wanted to post something. I wasn't really in the mood to write. Well, actually, I have nothing to write about.

Well, let me think....

One thing I want to do is to migrate to another country. I know you're supposed to be nationalistic and love your country, but how can you love a country that takes most of your money and you can't really see where it goes. Taxes. Where does the money they deduct from our salary go? I just bet they get millions from taxes. Where do these go? In government hospitals? They don't even have "high tech" medical machines that could save people's lives. In the military? Choppers keep crashing, they can't even replace the old ones. I think those might have even came from World War II! Roads? Infrastructures? Yeah right! Why do you think I have to spend to change the shocks of my car?

I want to leave the Philippines because I don't think we're going anywhere. When we get sick we have to pay for our bills while in other countries, the government pays. Public schools aren't even well developed.

Yeah we have to love our country and work together for the country's better good. But how can you love something that's like a splinter? It bothers you to the point that it could become an infection and kill you.

I'm sorry for the nationalistic people out there. I'm in my I-want-to-leave-the-Philippines mood right now.

I want these....

2005-07-31T11:38:00.000+08:00

Things I want (and will buy, unless someone decides to give me one, soo...)

1. Manolo Blahnik
2. Jimmy Choo Shoes
3. Tennis bracelet studded with diamonds
4. Kate Spade bag
5. Coach bag
6. A trip to Venice
7. Carribean cruise
8. A digital camera
9. Rav4 (or a good 4wheel drive suv)
10. designer clothes
11. A roxy or billabong bikini
12. surfboard
13. A beachfront resort
14. A mansion

Other things to follow....

Wasted!

2005-07-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

I haven't been wasted in such a long time.

Last night I was.

My DPC officemates and I had a "JULYers Beerday Party" (Party for the July celebrants me included--hint! hint!). Booze was beeing passed around. Lots of it. There were jagermeister, tequila, rum and of course beer. 9PM pa lang ata best friends na kami ng toilet bowl. Gosh, I miss my Bacolod Days wherein everynight was like last night.

Well, in DPC there is a tradition/initiation where they get the new ones drunk till they pass out. This will happen on Tuesday. Goodluck sa akin! I'll probably be one of the first to pass out or throw up. Hahaha! Goodluck in sa liver ko. Anyone have liveraide or something to protect my liver? :)

Survey from Koryn

2005-07-02T12:55:00.000+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. AMI (Ah-mi not ai-mee. by the way, it means friend in french)
2. Amy (Aimee)
3. Ams
3. Aims

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. caramel_macchiato 9my fave starbucks drink)
2. manicdepressivepsychogoddess
3. schizoid (and I still am!)

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. teeth (for enduring 4 years of wearing braces!)
2. shoulders
3. skin color

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. eyebags
2. my varicose veins-prone legs
3. my hips that don't get into shape

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Filipino (of course)
2. Chinese
3. espanol

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. being raped
2. ghosts (poltergeists in particular because they can hurt you)
3. death

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. lipbalm
2. alcohol (rubbing alcohol, the one that disinfects)
3. water

THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. pambahay shirt from Bacolod
2. Pambahay shorts
3. tsinelas

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. ?
2. The artists from the Starbucks Jazz CDs
3. Basia

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (I'll listen to the radio first then get back to you on this)
1.
2.
3.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Excitement
3. Being faithful to each other

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. I tend to get monotonous
2.
3.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Clean hands with long fingers
2. "Clean look" (some guys are rugged but still clean)
3. Height

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Channel surfing
2. window shopping
3. reading

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go to the beach for a month long vacation
2. Drink booze
3. Ride an airplane and travel the world

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Brand Manger
2. Work in a PR firm
3. Flight Attendant

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Venice, Italy
2. Carribean
3. Florida Keys

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Guiliana
2. Inigo
3. Cassidy

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Like Koryn, travel the world
2. give birth
3. The reason why Koryn, April and I are frineds GET STINKING RICH

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I like sports
2. "Co-boy" ako
3. I hide my feelings

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I can't open a tight jar or bottle on my own
2. I like to be protected
3. I like shopping

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. Brad Pitt
2. Paul Walken (from The Fast and the Furious)
3. My Hayden Christense-Crush-Period still isn't over

WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Paul How (Miss ou Paul! Especiall your witty :) remarks)
2. My dad (scary!!!! Hahaha! I'd fall off my chair if i see something he'd answer)
3. PGMA

LIVING LIFE AGAIN

2005-07-02T11:58:00.000+08:00

I've come to realize that I've missed out a lot.

I have a boring life. A same old boring routine.

I've been stuck here in the metro for a long time. I had the opportunities to slowly accomplish my goal of touring the entire Philippines and then the world but I didn't do it.

I've been stuck in this rut for the longest time in my life.

Maybe its just me. I do have a tendency to be "tamad" and want just to lie down and watch TV. I tend to take the "safe" side of things. I've always been wanting to be "wilder". To not care about anybody else and to be selfish. To think about myself first.

But I haven't been doing it. I still haven't done it.

after 2 months

2005-05-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

Two months have passed until I last updated this blog.

What happened to me since then?

1. I became a bum. I resigned from my job and enjoyed my time home.
2. My father passed away.
3. I got a job that I'm not sure I want to be in.
4. I went to Calatagan for the first time (I had sooo much planned for this summer but after what happened, I just stayed home).

My dad passed away. He had an angioplasty (they placed "balloons" in the veins in his heart to remove the blocks) and after less than two weeks after the operation he passed away. I was in the emergency room when it happened. I saw him. I saw how he died. I saw how hard the doctors tried to revive him. That's one thing a child should not see. Their father pass away like that. It was like a scene from ER. We brought him in because he was complaining of chest pains. He was ok, then in less than an hour it all happened. The machine, beeping, the doctors panicking. Then nothing. I was shaking when all these happened. I couldn't believe it. I even tried to negotiate with God, telling him to get one of my beloved dogs (they say that when a healthy pet suddenly dies & its sickly owner lives means that the pet gave up its life for its owner) so that my dad could live. But his time was up. The doctors gave us such crappy reasons about it. He had a virus, it was undetectable and there was no cure here in the Philippines. Crap! So much crap! They had a wrong judgement. I believe doctors shouldn't try stuff. They should stick to the tried and tested stuff. They are dealing with lives. No one can replace a lost life.

To those who still have their fathers. Tell them that you love him. TELL HIM NOW. You won't know when you'll lose him. Ok this is a cliche and everyone keeps on saying this. But this is true. If you and your dad have a fight, say sorry. Swallow your pride. Say I love you to the people you love. I'm lucky, my dad knows that I love him. I don't have the guilty feeling that most people have. Love your dad, love your family for that matter.

Summer

2005-03-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

Summer na!

Can't wait to hit the beach!

Freedom

2005-03-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

Freedom!

At last my long wait is over. I'm out of that place! I endured 1 year 2 months there. I don't regret it, I've learned a lot. But I'm happier being out of there. No more nagging, no more impossible requests, no more calls even when its not office hours. No more stress ('til my next job). No more!

My problem right now is....
WALA AKONG MAGAWA. Hehehe!

Sorry na lang sa mga nagtatrabaho and gusto mag-vacation. I'm having my summer vacation right now. I'm waking up late, watching TV or DVDs all day and just bumming around. The best of all, I no longer have to ask my boss permission to go on leave. Alis lang ako

Will I miss them? Probably to some extent but not the cheesy sappy, "I miss you".

As I saidd earlier, I'm happier being out of there.

For Koryn

2005-03-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

Koryn!

Ayan ha! Nag-update na ko ng blog ko.
I have all the time in the world.

Finally!!

2005-02-18T00:59:00.000+08:00

Finally! At long last! I am no longer a chicken! I did it! I resigned!

Twelve more working days and I'm free!

Victory is near!

I smell freedom!

Dumb and Dumber

2004-12-29T10:13:00.000+08:00

Why does it feel like I'm getting dumber by the minute?

I read Koryn's blog and noticed how good she writes and how much she improved. Its like a trully (no offense Koryn!) intellectual person wrote the things she wrote. I can't help comparing it to my writing style which is still the same as my college-reaction-paper writing style.

Does it come with the job? (i always connect my "depression" with my hate for my job)
Koryn has a more "intellectual" type of job wherein she gets to write stories, research and use her mind. While I'm a yaya, organizing, following orders and hating every minute of it!

Ahhhhhh!!!!!!

Being A Pessimist

2004-11-08T13:46:00.000+08:00

You know this thing from globe where you text a keyword and they send you quotes for free (the truth of the matter is that its only free for a month)? Well I did that. I sent a keyword and they send me quotes everydat at around 6PM. I want to stop it already but I can't find the right keyword for it. I've tried Famous NO, Famous Off, Cute No, Cute Off and all those other words they told me too send them. Well globe earns around Php50 per month from those quotes they send me. I wonder how many suckers like my they have?

Anyway, I got one about being a pessimist. It goes "The nice part about being a pessimist is that you are consantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised" by George F. Will. Will's right! I'm not encouraging everyone to becoming a pessimist but I just want to say why I chose to be one. You don't get your hopes up when you're a pessimist. You expect the worst in things. If you dn't get want you want, then you've proven you're point, things are bad as they seem. And if you do get what you want, you're happy. Unlike being optimists who expect the best and if they get disappointed when they don't get it. I just want to lessen the disappointments in my life. I don't want the feeling of not getting what you hope for. You hope and wish and pray that you get it but end up with nothing.

That's why I like being a pessimist. I am constanly suprised and happy with all the things I get. I don't get my hopes down wishing for something good to happen. I just expect the worst and if the worst comes, then so be it. At least I didn't disappoint myself.

Being self-centered

2004-11-08T13:21:00.000+08:00

All my posts are about me, myself and I.

Naturally, this is my blog!

Hahahaha!

Kidding aside, I've noticed that in my life, in my stories, its all about me. I can't help comparing myself to my friends who tell me stories about everythng. It's like I'm stuck in my world.

I guess I'm just stuck in a rut. Working in a company you thought was great and later discover that it sucks gets to you. It got to me. Its eating me whole!!!!! aaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

Graduating and having a job is supposed to make you grow. You're supposed to learn much. You're supposed to be wiser.

But why am I going backwards? I feel as if I'm getting dumber rather than learning. I feel like my insides are all shriveled up and that my only purpose in life is to eat and sleep.

Does that teach me a lesson? What should I do? One answer, get out of that g*&^%(*#@^%$d forsaken company. But are there other good jobs out there? Ha! I know the answer to that even before I started typing it.

ARGH! I'm stuck in a rut!

stress

2004-10-13T18:16:00.000+08:00

These past couple of days have been sooooo stressful. There are too many things to do, with so little time and I get to do it all by myself.

Choices

2004-10-06T19:55:00.000+08:00

People are where they are because of the choices they make.

Certain people have heart diseases and high cholesterol because they chose it. They chose not to stay fit. They chose to eat all the food they want, not to exercise and have a sedentary lifestyle. They knew the consequences. They knew the bad effects that would happen if they continue with their unhealthy lifestyle. Its their fault. They chose it.

Certain people are stuck in jobs they hate because they chose it. They are stuck doing the same old thing they hate for 30 years because they chose it. They knew they were unhappy. They had an opportunity elsewhere, yet they chose to have their jobs. And who is to blame for this? The children? The chose to have that job to earn money for their children? What a lame excuse! It was their fault. They chose to have that job rather than to look for another elsewhere. They have an unhappy and unfulfilled life because, they chose it.

I am now stuck in a rut. I hat my job. I hate the too much pressure. And doing all those work with minimal pay. I hate it. What should I do? Leave! I choose to leave. I don't want to torture myself. I don't want to make "tiyaga" anymore. I already did that. I gave my stupid job a chance. And I don't like it. I hate it! I hate to be called a quitter. But I am. There are times when you have to just draw the line and say "No, I don't want to move on." Its a better decision to quit when you know that nothing better is going to happen. I'd rather stop and be called a quitter rather than seeing myself deteriorate inside and out. I did my best to like my job. But I don't. For months I've been telling myself thatit will get better. But it doesn't. This is where I draw the line.

This is where I make my choice.

I quit.

If I could change my lifestyle.....

2004-10-04T16:14:00.000+08:00

I just went surfing over the weekend.

I loved it! Eventhough I wiped out 80% of the time and my body ached all day, I loved the adrenaline rush. The water all over you. And even the hot sun on your skin.I loved riding on the waves, seeing the board on the wave itself. I loved the emotions, the thump of your heart when you feel a wave crashing over you.

If I could change my lifestyle....

I'd become a beach bum and surf all day.

I'd leave my godforsaken job in an instant. What would you choose? Be stuck in your job (which you hate) or do something you love? Of course do what you love!